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A Christmas Wish

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 Dear love of my life, It's been a true emotional rollercoaster trying to figure myself out. Why I do the things I do and why I keep running circles with my emotional unavailability. And the only constant thought I never really managed to shake off the back of my mind is you. And that didn't even start with the first night we spent together, which was monumental in itself. No, it started way before that. It started the first moment my retina captured the sight of you that day at the bank when time stood still and the atom was split. And then my brain couldn't erase it. And even though at that time the possibility of me and you was only a fantasy, it eventually came true. But then I lost you and I've been searching for you ever since. And no matter how much time has passed, somehow I keep a door open for the posibility that maybe, just maybe one day I will wake up and see that beautiful smile of yours next to me.  Meanwhile I keep drowning myself in a sea of pointless pu...

Talk to the hand!

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You know that one time when you were talking to a girl, vibing, feeling confident, having a few laughs, hunting for that perfect moment that catch her gaze while leaning in to kiss those perfect soft lips and when you're almost there, BAM! she gives you the cheek? Rejection. One of the harshest feelings that you can ever come across. It's something that kinda puts you down on multiple levels. Not only do you not obtain what you long for, but it also makes you doubt yourself. When it comes to women, being rejected adds a third dimention to the equation, because once you have been rejected by one woman, all the other women in the proximity will label you instantly as a defective product. It's like instant bad karma. All they see now is red flags and they all want to get the fuck away from you. When that usually happens what you do is try again, which of course leads to more rejection. You see, there's a loop which you can't escape until you literally run, or th...

Your body is a temple

Most people, when in a relationship, tend to let go of themselves. They no longer care about their appearance, they no longer care about how they eat, dress and so on. What happens is, if you're in a relationship, you falsely assume that your better half will love you for who you are, no matter what. And while it may be true that your partner appreciates you for your personality, in a single's world, your personality will only take you so far and only your mother can love you no matter what. So you've just realized that all these years of eating out, choosing pizza over chicken and salad, drinking beer and nachos while watching a game or going to the movies have left their mark on you in the shape of a pot belly and man boobs, and that your dress shirt no longer fits you. You just know that this is not the image of a playboy that can attract countless beautiful women in his bed, this is just an average middle aged guy looking like he needs a prostate exam and can barely f...

The Playboy Mansion

Ok, now that you've decided it's time for you to start anew, you best be doing that the right way. If you wanna be a playboy, you gotta start living like one. Or the closest you can get. And the best place to start is your crib. Now, regardless you have your own place, you rent or you're super rich and already have a mansion and a maid, you should remember that in other peoples eyes, your place is a reflection of yourself. And this reflection needs to be squeaky clean. As stated above, you should clean your place to the tiniest detail. Especially important are the bathroom, bedroom and kitchen. Let's start with the bathroom. Beside having all the tiles, faucets and toilet polished, you should bear in mind to have a variety of toiletries, not only for you, but also for every potential woman that will cross your doorstep. As such you should always keep handy some make-up pads, night cream, blow dryer, q tips, hair brush, extra set of toothbrushes, fresh set of towel...

Get back on that horse

You watch her packing the last of her stuff, while you look at her thinking how you ended up in this situation in the first place. When you walked out the door this morning everything was good. You kissed her goodbye only to return home and notice her bags at the door. She looks at you with a faded expression and tells you she needs to talk to you. You quickly realize what's about to happen and your mind is projecting your last few years together and the life without her, all at the same time. Tonight you're gonna curl up in bed, with watery eyes trying to figure out how your life will be from now on. Thinking how you wished she was there to hold you and comfort you, but it's only you in the house, it's silent and the only thing that reminds you that this is not a dream is the sound of the clock, ticking on the nightstand. Everyone has been in this point at least once in his lifetime and everyone took that empty feeling right in the chest. But every end is just a new ...